- OwEn -

Listening: Five For Fighting - Superman


"i can’t stand to fly
i’m not that naive
i’m just out to find
the better part of me…"

not only because i’m in my "Superman’s mode" =P
but really…still remember this tunes so well
where the madness began along st.patrick’s blokes
(i miss you all so damn much !!!)
we’re singin’ it all over and over again =P
haha..especially on that moment..
we’re quite declaring the line ->
"it’s not easy to be me"
yeah..we’ve got same cases in our life
where nobody seems to understand you well..
(haha..i miss our drop dead silly stuffs around da’house..)

recently, i met up with some old friends..
having not seen most of them for at least a year
and they said that i’ve seemed to changed a lot
am i ??? *glek…hopefully it’s on positive sides..haha
i do not want to make changes just for the sake of making changes
i mean..changes….i feel, should take place naturally..
well..a person may seem to have changed quite a lot,
but then something in him or her
will still somehow remain the same…
but how much one can change and yet remain the same?
that’s the interesting part =P hmm..once again..
"it’s not easy to be me.."

……………………………………………………………………………………………………..

it’s been hours since one of my best-bud leavin’ s’pore..
and there we are..at the airport..5 of us (komplit degh euy)
where we’re always declare ourselves as superwomen
5 gahar women..whom always stands up for women’s rights
(wakaka..lalala…) whom always on top of da’ guyz !
yang cablaknya selangit…yang kalo dah ngemil kayak sapi..
yang palink seru kalo nginjek2 lelaki tak ada nyali..
(dang ! i’m gonna miss our "girls night out")

but most of all..behind it all..
we’ve also had quite a tough journey in life..
it’s not only in a thing called love..
but also all rough sides of life..
but you know what? i’m really amazed by it…
we’re tooooo damn strooongg =P
cuz’ we got our STROOONG GOD !!
and we’re always put our FAITH in it..
(part of learning God’s awesome ways ! ^^)
"segala sesuatu indah pada waktuNya"
and yes it is He’ll make our paths straight !

hmmm….now one of us have to go..
i believe someday i will too..
continue with our own journey
which is part of His purpose…

i’ll be missing you so much vi.. i will..!!
my loveable partner in crime
you taught me everything..especially in a way to be strong..
(ahem..also in a way to be a shopaholic..wakaka..insyaaap)
love your words..love your memories with me..
and most of all..love His blessings by givin’ me..you !
all the best for your marriage yak !
love you…love you..muwacchhh…!!

for me..i am on my learning journey
to becoming a real Superwoman
(*ahem..so no more supergirl =P but superwoman !)

if you rather believe i’m not over you..go ahead !
there’s nothing wrong with making believe..
i know, cuz i used to pretend you’d come back to me
but time has been such a friend..
brought me to my senses again
and i have you to thanked for setting me free..

cause you made me stronger by breaking my heart
you ended my life and made a better one start
you taught me everything..
from falling in love..
to letting go of a lie..

think again..
don’t feel so sorry for me..
don’t you know?
i’m not the one who lose at end..

ps:
urgh..i wish i realized it from the start..
lelaki buayaaa darat…lalalala…

the wedding reception was such a great time !
so that it deserved it’s very own blog post
thanks to everyone (committee and guests)
who has been helping and taking this happy journey ^^
which will end in a wonderful new beginning…
it really went well..on time..and lots of great performances
praise Lord !!

as the organizer, i’ve been extremely overwhelmed !!
by the enthusiasm and interest from so many people,
it’s been great & nice to work with you guys..!!

and this post is dedicated to my most memorable people at this event…
we present you…THE COMMITTEE of Mr. and Mrs. Irawan’s wedding
 
The Truly Wedding Organizer: Jesus Christ

Followed by:
The bride n groom - hilda n riky
(aaaa..senanknyaa..congratz !! love you both !! muach2..
cepet2 ada abuy jr. and hilda jr. yaaa !!)

then..me (as the organizer) and……..

i wanna say a HUGE thank you to:
    
Ceremony People:

Wedding Singer - Elita
hey babe..wakaka..o mi gong..awesome voice !!
Btw..video elo segh menghibur berat..!   
Ring Bearer - Daniel 
dearly daniel..u look handsome !! thx ci dewi & ko jackdy
Flower Girl - Rebecca 
our beautiful rebecca..love you more ^^ (*ahem..koko2 sibuk fallin’ for u tuh)
Maid of Honour - Rita
haha..mbak..makaci yaa !! Love u ! Thx for eperitin..
Best Man - David Chandra
vid it’s a pleasure..thank u ! You look great
    
Receptionist:   
Vera  - ver ! Thx for helpin’ decorations yak !
Fenni, Silvia Huang, Dian - you girls look awesome !! Thank u so muchhh !!
    
Ushers:   
Andre Habib, Oliph, Irwan, Achie, Tina
Thank u so muchh !! Especially pas nge-rush lighting the candles..
hoho..u guys are great !
    
MC:   
Linda Marelie 
haha..my assistant ! thx for everything ! MC got it goooooddd…love u !!
Melissa "bombie" 
bombiieee…loovveee uuuuu..makaci berattzz..MC got it goooooddd…

Dance:   
Elliot 
yooott…makaciii for the video..the dance..everything !
Doa-ku beserta italy malem ini..HAHAHA
Sasa + Jane + Jessica + Nasha
you girls are angels !! ^^ love you all…!!
    
WL + Singers:    
Nicholas 
nik..makaci ya..thx for your "alert" senses..wekeke..great WL ^^ 
Meli & Albert 
waaa…sweet song ^^ ("hanya Kau")
can’t wait for your upcoming wedz ^^ thx yaaa !!!

Musicians:    
Keyboard -
Harti 
hartiii..you’re the best ! Love yaa..amazed by your skills..^^
Bass -
Johan MK 
mas..jangan salah kirim sms lage ye..haha..
thx for everything ! It went great !
Drum -
Darwin 
winn !! Makaciii…bangeeet !! Hehe…eniwei…1-0 booww..

Multimedia:   
Powerpoint video -
Ari "Meong" 
dewa-nya slides..relax bro’..it went great !
Looking forward untuk ngebuatin slides for "jr.kids" haha..thx !!
Video Taping -
Ko Jackdy 
koooo..makaci banyak :) 
Photographer:   
Daniel "Baplanx", Andre, Tanjaya 
thx for everythiiingg !!! Poto2nya baguuuss..kyaa…
cepetan burn yaa ^^ kirim kirimmmm…ps: plank: thx 4 the performance
Sound System & Logistic   
Adrian, Chiank, Ivan
man..without u all..ga ada lagu2..suara2..dll…
whoaa..makaciiii banyaak !!!
    
Special Thanks to:   
Ci El, Erick, Chandra, Ko Omar , Vivi, Rimbo 
really appreciate your helps !!
thank u so much..you’ve been such a blessing !
Wawan
sweet voice..great performance..
great surprise !! (akhirnya dateeenk juga) thx wan !

we will always remember and cherish this wedding day
and look forward to creating many more happy moments

thank you so much !! you guys did a great job ^^
i couldn’t done it all without your helps !
thanks for your great ideas and time
love you all..be blessed ! praise Lord !!
God bless u !! ^^

ps:
and to people who helped me in the morning time,
(linda, chandra, meonx, ivan, erick, adrian, rimboen, vera)
helping me with decorations and sound-system set-up by:
spreadin’ feathers & petals, placin’ sash & ribbons,
cuttin’ flowers, decorating our own stage n gallery ! ^^
(oh man..without you all around me on that time..
i don’t think we can see a beautiful stage & aisle !!)
and of course vivi (for setting up the Hi-Fi =P)
love you love you !! hehehe ^^

Okay i am totally insane,
i will not be the first one to admit to that..
i slept last night at 5:00 am
i have to leave my house at 8:00 am
now..the time at this moment is 5:16 pm..
and i am totally sleepyyyy  (-____-)"

but trust me..i know my body..
the way today i grab red-bull(s)..
consuming cans of nescafe(s)..
forcin’ myself to be jazzed up..
but still..i’ve got scatter-brained and dizzy,.
and i’ve got quite a high-fever…

yeah..my one is..World Cup Fever..

World Cup Fever =   "hari ngemil sedunia"
                              "hari begadang sedunia"

DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?
(Taylor Hicks)

i never mean the one to raised my hand

that was not me..and now that’s who i am

because of you…i am standing tall..

my heart is full..of endless gratitude

you were the one..the one to guide me through

now i can see and i believe

it’s only just beginning..
 

this is what we’re dream about

but the only question with me now

it’s "do i make you proud"

stronger than i ever been now..
 

everybody needs to rise up

everybody needs to be loved..

to be loved..

[01:27:31 PM]  lost in space says:
yg bilang di post lo itu bener
[01:27:38 PM] lost in space says:
kalo ce gak selalu end up ma tipe dia
[01:27:50 PM] lost in space says:
kalo co bakal lbh strict ma tipe dia,
kalo dia uda gak demen ya susah
[01:28:33 PM]  lost in space says:
g bilang co punya simpenan karena ntah tu ce emank bukan tipe dia,
jadi kalo ketemu yg tipe dia bisa selingkuh

*ahem..nah loh nah loh…
so how? get the point..ladies and gentlemen?
well..that’s so sound scary…cuz’ it’s a man’s comment loh =P

btw heey.. relax…he’s a good guy anyway..
juz’ givin’ some “common” comment based on guys
(haha..my guy-friends are good guys J)

so..1^st comment of my day..

[01:30:28 PM]  lost in space says:
kalo lo demen tipe tertentu bisa lead on to sparks

conclusion:

that “sparks” related to or commin’ from
the exact numbers of match-points in “your type’s criteria”
hmmmm….agree anyone?
(well..not for me though =P)

ps:
thx bol ^^  !
btw boool…i miss u daaaamn much !
hope to see u sooonnn…*ga sabar*
cepetan kesini yeee…!

"What’s your type?"

haha..rrr..talkin’ about "type",
i just finished our talks with mr. &
mrs. adhiguna
and also balestier(ers) - ps: happy birthday edwin !
and continue to have a talk with
my guy-friends over the net..

ok..i’m a girl’s guys..(*ahem..in this case: "best-friend")
and i’m
fortunate to have many guy friends..
whom i can count on for good times and
support..
but it’s struck me recently that it’s not always wise
to turn
to them for "lovey-dovey" tips…

e.g:
to a guy that u like..but it’s soo nooott your type:
(especially
if they’re already knew what kind of "type" you want)

a) "Is that what you want? That doesn’t sound like you."

b) "Give him a chance! He may grow on you."

graaawlll…should i listen to them?
which one shall i choose? i just
need solutions?!
because on that moment..sometimes..
we couldn’t hear the
logics yelling: "keep an open mind!"
but how to?! for me, mostly..
women
doesn’t really stick to their "type" at the end
but men do…(yeaah..men
dooooo)

it’s fun for having a crush on someone
who you know you’re not gonna get
especially when it’s in a matter of his/her "type" that they want..
you
can actually dream on and on about the person
without losing and without
crawling for hope..
(oooh delooon..hahaha *beep* censored)

ok..for a) & b) case..
*geez*…i shall not tellin’ any
words…
beside that i appreciate what they’re tryin’ to tell me
so..
plank told me that i need a "man" not a "boy"
ha ha ha =P setuju
plank !
anyway…we can’t start a fire without a spark..
but is it true
that your "type" shall lead you to "sparks"?
think..it’s not a guarantee that
your "type" shall lead you to "sparks"
or even though he’s your type &
spark’s already added in..
but have u ever thinked whether you’re his "type"
too or not?

…………………….

_______________________________________________________
ps:
i just need a man
not a boy who thinks he
can…

ok ok..here it goes again..
addin’ a copy from my xanga’s blog
(cuz’ some of you complaining that you couldn’t reach my xanga’s from your web)
dang you’re lucky pals ! =P hahaha..

Monday, May 15, 2006

why love
must be dealin’ with lots of shocking stuffs?
are there any news or signs that leads
us to that?
think
it’ll be more easier to heals….
or even more lightly to try diggin’ it more
deeper..
hmmm…it’s not that i hate being in
loved..
well..at
this moment..i mean,
i’m not hating it..
i just hate guessing and questioning it
anyway..
it just
makes me imagine a whole lot "more"..
more pain..more worried..more "fake hopes"

i
told one of my "past" best bud before..
(ehem..if u readin’ it and
realized..ehehehe)
yeah…i don’t like to put "hope(s)" high..
(in this
case…in a thing called LOVE yeee..)
i hate to imagine or questioning things
to myself..
cuz’ usually it leads me to the "backward" of it..
you know
sometimes i imagine the backward…
in hoping that reality will leads me to
"backward" from it again..
get it? ehehe….well..haha i’m not being
pesismist..
but then it happened quite lots of time in
me..
luckily..praise Lord..i still can control my mind and soul..
that
this way are part of ways that God’s leads me to
so whatever happens…i
will not get dissapointed..

for the truth…what is the real meaning of
"feeling" anyway..
think a lil’ thing from that, you’ll just need to be
prepare
if you don’t carry and control it properly..*ZAPS*
you’ll be gone…for sure ! =P juz’ like
what the words say:
"too much love will kill
you"

ps:
haha..everybody around me already
"together"
congratz yeee for the "new couple" (again?!)
haha..
waitin’
for your fully report n updated news
have a blessed relationships..!

o yea one more ! btw
planx..
apaan tu "setrum2"..ahahaha…jelek lo !

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