- letting you go -

December 11th, 2005 by 0wen

Sitting in the silence
Completely numb
No worries..of fears or pains
Suddenly they’re coming slowly like a forgotten tears..

Did I forget to say I love you?
Yeah..of course i did..
Cause you’re never realized..
And one thing for sure..
Guess you’ll never know..

why do i build up feelings?
that i’m not sure exist
i shouldn’t insist
it’s all a distraction
to the rest of my life..
my life revolves around
my "all-too-caring" heart

i can only thank you
for the rainbows you brought to my storms
for the silver lining you stitched in my clouds
long before the credits rolled…

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t h e   e n d

- me -

penantian..

December 7th, 2005 by 0wen

Waiting_1

Teruntuk sang cinta dan kesedihan..
Yang hadirnya tak tersadari..
Ku tlah terlebih dulu mencintai kesedihan
Sebelum cinta menghadirkan sedih padaku 

Terjerat dan terengah
Ku mengejar waktu yang terserak
Goresan ingatan mengiris tajam waktu
Bersikeras hadir di spanjang jalan
Nyerinya tak mengenal ampun..

Detik pun menusuk..
Menit terikut menikam..
Dan hari tanpa segan melukai
Namun penantianku pun tiba..

Penantianku..
Menggenggam erat harapan
Penantianku..
Kasih yang takkan mengalah akan waktu
Penantianku..
Bertahan diombang riuhnya badai kerinduan

Penantianku..
Cinta kasih tak terperi
Yang terluka nyeri
Namun tetap menempa diri
Bertahan demi cinta itu sendiri
Hingga kita mampu mengerti

Hembusan angin di waktu fajar
Akan menceritakan rahasiaku kepadamu
Lelap..terlelaplah dikau..
Hingga kau kan menyadarinya..

l o s t

December 4th, 2005 by 0wen

I can feel the air beneath my wings
I listen as the wind spokens in ears
Softly as a gentle breeze..
As love crept into my heart

So softly..too softly perhaps
That i didn’t even realize
but then i tried to reach for you
i burnt myself up in questioning
Too lost for being afraid to lose you

So stunned was I by this attack..
It clamped right around my heart
Too much fright to bleed again
So i just left myself in disguise

Don’t get me wrong
Perhaps i’m still questioning "things"
But is there an end to this trip?
Or will a hole never rip
Quizzical..numerical
Wait ! i still see you in my mist..
But..when we’ll ever realized?

Mark Owen proposes (IT’s OVER for ME..)

December 2nd, 2005 by 0wen
MARRY ME, EMMA
Mark Owen proposes in the Record
Exclusive By John Dingwall

TAKE
That heart-throb Mark Owen has decided to pop the question to his
beautiful girlfriend Emma Ferguson… exclusively in the Daily Record.

The news will come as a surprise to his legions of fans - and to actress Emmawho is unaware of his intentions.

Mark, 33, said: "She doesn’t know about it yet, but hopefully she will pick up the paper and realise."

The
singer says he has finally found the woman he wants to spend the rest
of his life with in blonde bombshell Emma, best known for TV roles in
the likes ofThe Bill, High Life, Fortysomething and North& South.

Mark said: "I would like to settle down. As I get older, it is something I think about more and more.

"I want to start a family and do the whole thing. I want to get married, have the big ceremony with all the fireworks.

"It’ll be a lovely thing. I want to get the tour over first then get married to Emma.

"I’m
a romantic at heart so I will try to do something special on the big
day. I’d like for us to get married in a little church somewhere."

Mark
cites Emma as the rock who helped him cope with life a decade after the
craziness that came with being one fifth of Britain’s best-loved
boyband in the Nineties.

The group appeared
to have split for good at the start of 1996 following the shock
decision by Robbie Williams to walk out on his bandmates six months
earlier.

While Robbie went on to reach superstardom, Mark struggled to match Take That’s popularity as a solo artist.

As
his pop career floundered, he fell for Emma 18 months ago, and she
supported him at a time whenhe considered giving up his solorecording
work. These days the couple spend whatever time they have together
walking their dogs at Mark’s home near the historic town of Kirby
Lonsdale, between the Lake District and Yorkshire Dales, or holed up at
her London flat.

Mark said: "She’s very
supportive and makes me laugh. She is a good friend and that’s
important. But she lives in London so I have been crashing at her place
a lot.

"She is a lovely lady and and we try to enjoy as much time as we can together."

The
Record was first with the news that Gary Barlow, Howard Donald, Jason
Orange and Mark would reunite for an 11-date tour following the release
of their current greatest hits album,The Ultimate Collection.

The band will play Glasgow’s SECC on April 30 next year and tickets for the show go on sale tomorrow.

Meanwhile,
Mark is also planning a solo gig on a smaller scale, at Glasgow’s tiny
Barfly venue, on December 12. He is also releasing a single, Hail Mary,
in the New Year.

He said: "Take That got together for a week and it was a little crazy after all that time.

Robbie was the only one who didn’t make it and the rest of us were pretty nervous.

"Coming
back 10 years later, it wasn’t quite Take That because Robbie was
missing. But spending a week together gave us the chance to reminisce a
lot.

"The reuniting thing was just talk to
start with.Then the idea of us being together for a weekend became a
week, then a month and it’s hard to say where all this is going to go.

"I’ll
enjoy the challenge of getting upon stage with Take That in front of
thousands of fans but I will be just as happy playing a gig on my own
in Barfly or doing an acoustic set in a pub like Brel in the West End
of Glasgow, which I did this year.

"Robbie has gone on to superstardom. Gary has been songwriting, Howard is DJing and Jason has spent time with himself.

"I’ve
always just wanted to write songs and perform them. I’m more realistic
than I was 10 years ago.There was a period when I was 32 when I
wondered what I should do with the rest of my life. But I found myself
back at the piano, writing new songs. I set up my own label.

"As a solo artist I am trying to build an audience with the songs I do. I don’t feel it is a slog.

"Playing
live with the Take That boys in the Nineties was incredible. We were
young and it was amazing to perform to that size of audience with all
the production back-up that was available to us.

"We
had fireworks going off and dancers everywhere. On my own, the
enjoyment comes from doing my own songs that I wrote at home with a
piano. It carries the same enjoyment for me."

Of all the Take That members, Mark was the only one Robbie continued his relationship with.

"Robbie and I keep in touch," said Mark. "We don’t speak every week but when we bump into each other it’s nice to hang out.

"When
I was in LA recording, we had a game of football and got together a
lot.We played each other songs we’d been writing and when he’s over in
the UK,we meet up.

"I’ve got a lot of respect
for Robbie and for what he has done musically and as a person. He has
grown up and is a handsome young man who has done very well. I’m proud
of his achievements.

"People say he is
misunderstood but I still see the same Robbie.When we get together, we
have a laugh and talk about old times. He’s a lovely guy who I have a
lot of respect for.

"Towards the end of the band I knew Robbie had had enough. He made his own decision about what he wanted to do."

While Robbie sells CDs in his millions, Mark is involved in what has been, until now, a fairly low key solo career.

Their contrast in fortunes couldn’t be clearer when Mark describes a typical day.

"When I am not writing and performing I’m trying to balance the books and find other places to tour," he said. "It never stops.

"I
love writing songs and getting up onstage to perform. I wouldn’t do it
if I didn’t enjoy it. I’m proud of the songs I’ve written over the
years and the albums I have made.

"I don’t think about not doing as well as Robbie or Take That because it can get too much sometimes.

"Everyone makes their own decisions and has their own life journey

do you hear it?

November 30th, 2005 by 0wen

Bell_1

..c i n t a..

November 22nd, 2005 by 0wen

Cinta..
Ungkapan sebuah nama..
Lampiran seruan lambang kasih
Luapan manja dan suka..
Juga paduan perih dan luka..

Cinta..
Harapan terbit..
Membina anganan lepas
Di hadapan kabur menanti
Doa tulus-ku menjadi pegangan

Cinta..
Berpegang pada harapan
Merintis tangkai hati yg kesakitan
Meniti cinta yang tertinggal
Jeritan hati nurani yang tak lagi kudengar

Cinta..
Ketika kehadiranmu menghapus bayangnya
Menghantui lembaran baru di dalam hidup
Riakan kasih yang tak henti meraup
Segala angan yang terindah..

Cinta..
Saat serpihan diriku di dalamnya..
Seakan kalbu menyatukan tautan isi hati
Terpatung irisan hati kelu-ku disini..
Terasa pendosa karna memalingkan wajah dari cinta

Cinta…
Merinduimu setiap masa
Takut menghadapi saat ku harus kehilanganmu
Tidak tahu adakah aku masih berdaya
Meniti hembusan kasihku ini..

ps:
apa artinya "cinta"?
when do i realize it’s love..?
or we’ll never ever realize?
sadarkaaahh andaaa? ehehe…=P cape ah…

..welcome to neverland !..

October 26th, 2005 by 0wen

Heaven..
Fantasies..
Dreams..
Love..

Touch my soul..
Taste my heart..
Smell my pain..
Feel my scars…

Completed in life
By your presence
To fill my heart
With joy and happiness..
Then desire flares of lies
Burnt them all in pieces..

To be loved by you,
is like an everlasting fantasy,
That will last an eternity..
But i have to let you go..
And you have to let me go..
Cause fantasy it’s just a fantasy..
Well..welcome to NEVERland..!

ps: Th_d7121b5a
**Tinkerbell** :

"but fairies are so small..
they only have room for one feeling at a time"
(She ends up knocking and locking it inside a glass case…)
 

Lifehouse - Blind

October 24th, 2005 by 0wen

I was young but I wasn’t naive
I watched helpless
As you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
never thought we’d be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you’ll ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

ps: i shall let u go :)
promise me that you and her gonna be ok?
haha…dun really wanna waste my time over u again =P
all the best…take care ^^

P U A S !!!

October 19th, 2005 by 0wen
Kesucian akan dirimu
Yang lama sudah kau tutupi
Yang perlahan lahan membunuhku
Karena tetap mempertahankanmu
Kau buatku terjatuh dan terluka
Tapi kau juga yang menyadarkanku
Dengan topeng palsumu yang tanpa tersadar
Telah mempertontonkan segala borokmu
Jujur ku-muak !
Perhatikanlah baik baik..
Bahkan angin pun tak berani berlalu
Atau awan pun tak berani menutupimu lagi
Ingatlah pedihnya kata2 manis yang kau-ucap

Ucapkanlah lagi kepalsuanmu !
Sembunyikanlah terus di dalam lukaku !
Sadarlah engkau disana…sudah waktunya..
Ketakutanmu akan kehilangan akan kau rasakan !
Hhh..ku tertawa puas !
Puas akan kebodohanmu selama ini
Puas akan keluguanmu yang tak tahu menahu
Akan seberapa dalam aku tahu kebenaranmu
Puas akan kesadaran ku selama ini

Puas akan keberadaanku yang tak perlu berharap
Akan seberapa lama lagi aku harus bertahan
Puas akan keputusan ku akan akhir cinta kita !
Perlahan lahan kau akan menggapai
Langkah cepat tapak kaki-ku
Yang sanggup tertawa dan melepaskanmu
Jangan pernah berharap atau merenung,
Muak sudah dengan kata cinta akan mu !

ps:
buat seseorang disana :)
thanks for the truth..
even though it’s quite hard for us..
but we manage to be strong enough !
we’ll be bestfriend for sure..
take care there..and be strong ! ^^
hahaha…kita hajar bersama "kadal" ituuu…HOREEE !!

dan mungkin bila nanti..

October 15th, 2005 by 0wen

Isi hati yang terkulai
Terhempas lepas di tengah buaian
Seiring malam yang setia menemani
Yang tak pernah membiarkan sinar pagi
Tuk mencerahkan bayang sepiku..

Kumasih terjaga dan berharap
Agar malam tak sepenuhnya membisu..
Terpaan angin dingin dan beku..
Mengganggu pikiranku yang hampa

Seruan ombak membangunkanku
Serpihan badai menyadarkanku
Satu..dua..tiga kali..
Lalu kebencian pun terkuak
Meronta dari dasar hati yang terdalam..

Terpaku pasung sang kaki hati
Terdiam tak bergerak setapak pun
Dihinggapi..dihujani tetesan air mata
Kau yang terindah di masa itu
Hilang lenyap kuhapus dari dasar hatiku..

ps: akhirnya aku sadar satu hal…
mungkin kamu emang ga se-sayang itu sama aku

(inspiration: "menunggu pagi")